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Poem Details
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| Title: | I AM HERE |
| Author: | Anonymous |
| Date Submitted: | 6/6/2008 |
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I should have seen it coming. Somehow you anesthetize my emotions with a sliver of happiness and normalcy. You have come into my mind and are trying to fully envelope me with your hatred and your emotional rampage. You take over my mind and use it for your own personal playground. When I speak, you are shredding what I really want to say and weaving it back together with your blackness. “I AM HERE” but I don’t think those around me can see me. I try to make them see thru my eyes that “I AM HERE”! Please look deeper. I am so sorry. I don’t want to hurt you. It is hurting me so deeply inside. You bask in the pure hatred that you force out thru my voice. You laugh at the pain and anger you cause to those I love. My mind hurts from how loud you are. You make my head feel like it is a ticking bomb, ready to explode at any moment and cause a carnage of collateral damage to those around me. I am supposed to accept you to some degree but I won’t. You are my enemy. I know I need an army of support to help conquer you, for you have beaten me so far down over time that at your peak performances I feel as though you have won and there is nothing left of me. But “I AM HERE” way down deep inside. I take a deep breath when you let your guard down during the height of your ruling of my mind. There I am. I AM HERE! And you will never take that away from me. You are the most supreme of all manipulators but my fight to control you is much stronger. You have begun to distort what I am seeing and you relish this. Yes I do hate what I see when I look in the mirror. You want me to think I hate myself and at times I do. But I do know it is you I hate, I hate you with every last bit of me that you have not invaded. Standing in front of the mirror all that races thru my mind is “Fuck Off”. I see myself as ugly, stupid. A nut job that needs to be put away. You distorted my sight into me surrendering to you. Well I won’t. I mean “Fuck Off to YOU”! Go away! Leave me and my family and friends alone. I hate you and the way you make me feel that everyone around me would be better off if I just give into you and be put away with all the others lives you have ripped apart. Your ego loves to control every mind you can. You get off on making them fracture into an infinite number of pieces of you. For then you have grown even more. Then you can take over completely. Mind, body and soul. I am not the most spiritual person but you are one of the fallen angels. One of those meant to live with torment and pain and this is why you seek out others to enslave. Well bring it on! I know with the support of my family YOU will NOT WIN. I AM HERE! And with their help it will be the sweetest of sweet victories.... |