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Title: I need to believe in something
Date Submitted: 3/8/2008
Email: crimson_surrender@hotmail.com

 
Poem: I believe that our truths will only hurt those around us
And will hurt others even more than it can hurt ourselves.
I believe that the truth must be hidden at all costs.
I believe in my mask, not so much in its perfection or ability but in its necessity.
I believe that I have to be strong.
I believe that I will continue to let people down,
that I cannot be what they need or want me to be.
I believe in my absolute love for my parents,
and me as the reason for their pain.
I believe that I won’t ever be able to be the person they most want me to be
(the person I most want to be for them).
I believe that their lives would have been so different had I not been born.
I believe that I have hurt so many people so very much.
Despite my best intentions I have hurt those I most cared for,
and lost these people I care about.
I believe that I was born with this poison inside of me.
A foreign baby my mother’s body should have rejected but somehow held on to.
A baby born so premature, but born so very much too late.
I believe that some things will always. just. be....