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Poem Details
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| Title: | The Knowing |
| Author: | KGP |
| Date Submitted: | 9/10/2006 |
| Poem: |
God is unknown to me A fear I regret Depression, psychosis and delusions Rape me in the night I pray not to heed these But as eyes close they show themselves again I pray harder – why won't He answer me? Faith, I guess, that I continue the prayer. The drink of mindlessness helps to ease The Pain of this distaste and despair. But to no avail, the trauma repeated With a vengeance I cannot bare. To wake every morning, the sun crisp with frost Makes me weep to what I don’t own I smile at my dog, refreshingly loving And convince myself, I’m not alone. I look for the signs that my prayers be answered Eyes weeping from nightmare startled sleep The sun, the freshness, the dreams of a day Be happy? A feeling, if only I could keep. I’ve been painting this week, learning myself To identify a new beginning Today a friend gave me a book Inspiring my spiritual yearning. I’m soulful this week, no fog from the drink Less nightmares in the making My prayers answered? I ponder – My Lord! God is known to me.... |