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Poem Details
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| Title: | Haunted |
| Author: | Heather Saine |
| Date Submitted: | 1/21/2014 |
| Email: | heathersaine@gmail.com |
| Poem: |
Once again, I lie awake Unable to do the one thing I want most To sleep off the madness My thoughts race and my mood darkens Everything around me takes on a shadow Like being surrounded by demons Only the demons are in my head and I can''t run from them for there is no hope of escape It feels like I am being attacked from the inside My own brain has turned on me and I no longer even know myself I can''t trust my actions because if my thoughts don''t make sense then how are my actions supposed to? I look in the mirror and I do not see an attractive person The ugliness is seeping out from the inside and affecting the outside Engulfing me Everything I thought I was is gone Leaving me a broken shell I never knew the depths of this kind of self-loathing were possible How could anyone love me when I hate myself so much? I hate feeling so hopeless What control do you have over anything if not yourself? And the lack of control makes me loose control even more Everything is just so overwhelming Even the little things feel as though they may bury me under their weight And part of me would welcome that if it would at least put an end to the pain But it is something I will never escape It will haunt me for as long as I draw breath A banshee shrieking a constant reminder that I am simply a ghost of who I should be Just call me Casper.... |